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obscenely good
Jul. 21st, 2003 11:45 amI just want to put it on the record that I was challenged to make an LJ post with the above title. It's not necessarily an accurate reaction of the way I'm feeling.
Mainly, I'm feeling guilty because I have so little time for my friends. I have my work; my wonderful girlfriend; and my need for private time. My life is very full, and sometimes I honestly can't find the energy to be sociable, either online or in real life.
I know friendships are like potplants and they die without proper care and attention. But sometimes it really just is so much easier to, for example, curl up in bed and rest my tired brain than go online and talk to people. I'm so afraid that that will mean that I'll slowly but surely drift out of people's friendship range.
It's not that I resent other people becoming close. I just don't want anyone drifting away from me. I used to be so unbelievably lonely, and I never want to go back there.
Mainly, I'm feeling guilty because I have so little time for my friends. I have my work; my wonderful girlfriend; and my need for private time. My life is very full, and sometimes I honestly can't find the energy to be sociable, either online or in real life.
I know friendships are like potplants and they die without proper care and attention. But sometimes it really just is so much easier to, for example, curl up in bed and rest my tired brain than go online and talk to people. I'm so afraid that that will mean that I'll slowly but surely drift out of people's friendship range.
It's not that I resent other people becoming close. I just don't want anyone drifting away from me. I used to be so unbelievably lonely, and I never want to go back there.
