Be careful what you wish for

[vostoklake]

In the past twenty years, from time to time I have found myself wishing for:

• the opportunity to perform on a regular basis to a sympathetic audience and not have to pay for the privilege;
• a modest income doing something which uses my skills and talents but still allows me space for creativity;
• to live by myself.

Yeah, I achieved all those goals. Why aren't I deliriously happy yet? Perhaps I should aim bigger next time.

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[mermaid]

For what it's worth, my instant response to reading this post was as follows:

for most of the years we've known each other, you've had huge, ambitious, quite possibly unattainable goals. And they - or their non-fulfilment - helped make you miserable and angry.

You've now achieved three significant and useful things, and I think you might be happier than at any previous time I can remember this past decade. And having these things - under your belt, under your feet - could be the perfect foundation for bigger things.

So, in sum, yay you and don't be so hard on yourself, babe :)